Trials and Tribulations

At the moment sex or making love with John has a purpose we are trying to have a baby, this is our second attempt, the first attempt at having a baby started last November and we managed to conceive at Christmas time. So we spent the summer looking forward to bringing a wonderful little life in to the world, but alas this was not to be. At our first scan at 11 weeks we found that it had died, mother nature had decided that it was not meant to be. So what was supposed to be a good time suddenly turned bad. I spent most of March in extreme physical and emotional pain. As I had had what they term as either a missed miscarriage or missed abortion, I had to go into the hospital and be induced. This meant I basically gave birth to what would have been my baby. Which is painful as I had contractions and dilation, just like women who get to give birth to healthy living babies.

So now we go though the trials of testing for ovulation, hoping for a missed period, and when if a period happens being down and feeling knocked out. So fingers crossed John scores a hole in one again. One step at a time until we reach the finish line of a healthy and happy baby.

A cast list

I thought I had better keep a cast list of who was who, every name is taken from a science fiction show. Each character they are named after has a similar personality as them, but not necessarily the same relationships.

John~ My dear and loving husband, who like the character he is named after is ever so slightly crazy. Some times not knowing if he is coming or going due to his MPD ( Multiple Personality's).

Aeryn~ My flatmate and girlfriend, she handles tough guy situations very well, but crying woman and relationships she either runs from or comes across as aloof, but deep down is a very loving person and would fight for the ones she loves.

Whiskey~ My insane black and white cat. We got him as a stray foundling, his mother was a stray and he was found in Johns fathers wood pile, thats where he was born. His mother was caught and taken to the SPCA and Whiskey and his brothers and sisters were left abandoned. So john and I decided to take him in and love him. From the picture on the side you can see why. He is about 8 weeks old there. Rest in Peace - He died on the 28th of July.

Trance Gemini (The future version) ~ Johns secondary and lover, a truly wonderful woman who is kind, caring, giving and very loving person. Not to mention very sensual and sexual. Trance is the person who would drive half an hour to help a friend bury a cat. She goes out of her way to help those she loves. I consider myself lucky to have her as a friend. In the past we have been lovers but our relationship has changed, but over time I hope that we might grow into something bigger and better than it was before.

Rodney Skinner ( The Invisible Man) ~ How to describe him, that is a hard question. Rodney is a person from my life before all the bad stuff happened. He is more of a pervert than anyone that I know. Intelligent and driven, but also a closet geek. He will try most things at least once. Rodney was my boyfriend when I was 14, and now that we are adults we can get up to much more. He is at the moment my online guy to play with ( currently hoping to play in person).

Will up date as I add to the list

Sci-fi

Farscape
League of Extraordinary Gentlemen
Andromeda

A Start

Here goes nothing, I want a space to be myself, to be sexy, spontaneous, to laugh and cry. This is where I have chosen it to be.
The name cat by a fire, I feel reflects my home where at this moment I have a small black and white cat named Whiskey sitting by a fire. He looks at the flames like he is hypnotized, I get glared at when I break his view of the fire.

Who am I? Besides someone who is owned by a cat ( people own dogs, cats own people ), I am a woman who looks after a husband and flatmate, I do the cooking and cleaning, laundry and dishes. Basically I am a housewife, and I love it. Some days I get lots done, other days I sit back and read a book or play sims2. But what ever I do Whiskey tends to be my little shadow. Good times and bad my little shadow is there, sometimes that is a comfort and other times it is a nuance.
I think of myself as being very sexual, I love sex, but I love making love to my husband the most, as when I do I feel like I am one with him, while at the same time flying high but without the drugs.
I am openly bisexual, and both me and my husband are polyamorous and have an open marriage.
Our flatmate is my girlfriend for want of a better word to describe her while John my husband has a different girlfriend and lover who is also poly and happens to be pansexual and a old lover of mine who I hope one day when my head is screwed on better to get back together with.